Newly joined. I just wanted to say hi and introduce myself. I'm thinking about joining the FFL for a very long time. At least past two years. I'm 27, from Turkey, was born to Hungarian and Turkish parents. My parents are divorced so I'm living with my mom. I haven't talked to my dad for about 3 years. I have served in the Turkish Armed Forces before, where they are clashing with the militants. I saw combat. We were ambushed a few times both day and night but that's all. I was dating a girl from the UK, she was a really cool girl, I loved her more than anything. We met online and seen each other in real life a couple of times. We were dating for 4 years, then we had some kind of an argument and stopped talking to each other. And then I heard about the sad news from her friend, she committed suicide. My world fell apart. I got really sad and depressed for a very long time. I lost interest in my hobbies. No joy. And it's still going on. I'm working out hard and trying to forget what happened in the past. Keeping myself busy. I'm about 199cm and 104kg physically. I'm still thinking about joining the FFL everyday. I just love helping people. The salary is not really my thing as long as I get my food and water lol. Well that was my life story. I just wanted to know what do you guys thinking about it? Should I go for it?