when i was 16 i began to feel depression ruling my life, i lost my ability to communicate to people, at 17 i took 100 pills thinking i would die peacefully in my sleep, instead i felt increadible pain in all my internal organs and nearly had a heart attack, it was beating so fast i taught it was going to explode, i spent a week in hospital.
strangly enough i improved without any help, my parents chose to ignore it and pretend it never happened. I decided at 18 i would become a soldier, but couldnt join in my own country, Ireland because of what happened. due to family circumstances and lack of information i didnt get to join anywhere. at 21,22 the depression came back, and i heard about the legion and decided to go there to hopefully be killed (i was really ****ed up at the time). sence then it has improved but i descovered what was causing it. I am dyslexic and have majer difficulties with day to day life tasks, in particular organisation skills, which leads to problems mounting, confusion and depression.
I believe that if i joined the legion i would have corrected these difficulties and become a good soldier. I am very fit naturally athletic, more than anyone i know.
I know all commen sense says dont join.
But all i want to know is, from ex legionaires, how does the legion deal with depression?
I would have done very well in the begining, small amounts of depression are normal, actually that is what drives most people to suceed, the search for contentment.
but when it would come hard what would they do?
personally i think they would have beaten the depression out of me
prision?
beatings?
try and make me desert?
shoot me?
it must be a regular problem
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